heeeyy i know i havent updated in like sooo looooong aahhhh XD  quite honestly im not even supposed to be at the comp at this time. and ish only 10pm lol, but still its a school night and i have to wake up at 5:30 in the mornin so cut me some slack here. i wonder if my stupid pictures and music is workin for all yall out there :-/  Pain, we want it. Pain, we want it >=D good song good song.

lol wow does anyone read this thing anymore? i bet not i havent updated in like 4 years lol xD

yea so anyways how have all ya been? good? dandy! yea i hate school. like lol things havent gotten better wit my history teacher..(mr kent) and like..i totally sympathize (sp?) wit my sis when she said that she almost everyday she would come out of his class feeling like the lowest person ever. like seriously everytime i come out of his classroom i feel like the lowest being on the face of this earth! its so fuckin horrible i hate this man so freakin much i feel like crying. he makes me feel like a worthless piece of shit and not only that but he makes it known to ppl that im the lowest in the class nd crap. i mean come on. T_T i know he is a VERY unreasonable man but he cant be that cold. this whole thing wit me nd him has gotten so bad that it makes me HATE bga and makes me WANT to go to mother seton! i mean an all girl school! i swear..sometimes i feel like i'd be so much better off...ANYTHING to get away from this disgusting creature.. ugh he sickens me. hate him so much.
yea so besides that shit school has jus been normal i guess..boring as hell and really pointless but school nonetheless.

things at home are startin to get a lil exciting however. just last night my sister me and my mother sat down in the living room and had a very serious conversation about moving! wow! finally! i have been wanting to get out of plainfield for the longest time and now that we have a high possibilty of actually moving i am just overjoyed! quite honestly i am just so sick of plainfield already. im miserable here! there is nothing to do and nowhere to go..if you knew me you'd know that im a house cat and am ALWAYS inside the house. there IS a reason for that thuogh..my neighborhood is a piece o shit lol. its like....no offense or anythin but...i dk i jus dun really llike the ppl here anymore. its not like they are mean or anything but i just need new surroundings. there is a park down the street from me that i used to enjoy walking to in the summer. i dont even think its worth my time anymore. its disgusting and nasty and small anyway, and the little lake down there is always disgustingly full of garbage and trash. and i have to watch those poor lil duckies swim in that. how cruel! i jus hate it here now. i SERIOUSLY need new surroundings..i need something that will make me want to go outside and just sit on the porch or sumthing. im so glad we are highly considering moving.
just today when my mom nd sis picked me up from anime club after school we went house hunting cuz i guess they were bored or suttin. we went in piscataway and saw lots o nice houses down there that would suit us well..it was exciting..jus the though of moving to somewhere new excites me so. ive never moved in my life and it would be a nice experience for me. i need a good experience after all. after all the shit that im puttin up wit in school and crap. i need something good to happen to me right about now. i need a new start. and what better way to start from scratch then move! ^_^
i hope its soon ^-^

~before i wrap this up i jus wanna say a lil suttin to a friend of mine, you know who you are..lost something special to him recently and i jus want to say to you, if you are reading this, that i am so sorry to hear about your loss and really hope you are coping well with it and all..i am still here if you need someone to talk to even though i doubt....well...i'll just leave it at that...
but i am sorry and i wish you well, always ^_^

okie thas all fer now i dk what else to write and i gotta go to bed now cuz im reallie reallie reallie reallie shleepy -o- and ish past my bedtime ;D
g'niiight
~:+:Melly:+:~

"...How bout that show Gentle Ben, Remeber that show? About a big friendly bear. There's a good thing to teach kids.. "Hey bears are friendly! Go up and let him give ya a big hug. Put some honey on your face, let him lick it off." Bears love kids with honey on their heads. They love honey head kids!"

"...I always wondered what a bird was thinkin standin in a cage 'Hey thank you! Hey i've been blessed with the gift of flight....appreciate the environment. I donno how to fly im standing on a STICK!....Hey I've already read these newspapers! In fact i've whited out some typos."

"...I met this woman her name was Amy. I was like 'oh, um A-M-Y?' she goes "No A-Y-M-I-E" ....I have to take a nap! "Hi, I'm Brian B-R-I-V-O-L-B-N the number 7 and the letter Q! BRISAHGKSNAKIHGDA!"

LMFAO!